"fear not. be of good cheer. the future is as bright as your faith.”
- thomas s. monson
June 5th, 2011:
My last testimony meeting before heading out and becoming a big shot "college girl". it was pretty predictable with the same people getting up, until one of the ward elders got up and talked about his mission. he went on to say that "there is no greater job than to be out on a mission" and the spirit burned my soul as those words rang so true to me personally. i was fasting about something else, but as i felt the spirit i asked My father if i should consider a mission, and the answer i got was to prepare for one, but know that the future is untold to me and could change. this was an unknown prayer answered for me.
August 1st, 2011:
The guy i fell in love with my senior year, wrote his first letter to me in the MTC and told me how he really felt. He told me of his love for me, and his hopes that it will continue to grow into a more pure and christlike love, and his bigger hopes to one day take me to the temple and to be sealed to me, for eternity. This came as a shock to me, ket me assure you and YES i had happy tears all over my face. He was an answer to my prayers.
January 4th 2012:
I had been thinking about getting my Master's in Social Work, but felt so unassured. I'd prayed and prayed for months now, but i've found so many people doubting my abilities and my incredibly emotional heart for such a tough job. I went into my first social work class this particular day, and as Dr. Cox asked each of us why we were in that class, i told her how i know you have to be tough, you have to be understanding and you have to have a mighty heart for this field. I told her that this is what all my trials have been preparing me for, and immediately the same burning feeling touched my soul, as i asked my Father, "is this the job you have been preparing me for?" i literally felt Him saying "yes, chelsea, this is what i've prepared you for" by how much my body burned with the spirit. This was a longggg awaited answer to my prayers.
January 9th, 2012:
Once again, i sat in my social work class, and once again, i had an answer to my prayers. So many people have been doubting me about going on a mission, I get the classic answer "a girl like you can't last till they're 21 without being married." And you know what i say to you guys? A girl like me can. I know the church i belong to is true, and i know God has a plan for ME. As Dr. Cox talked about how tough it is to get into the Masters program, especially for a white girl like me, she said that knowing another language and missions help. And with the word mission, the spirit once again struck me. then asked my Father again, am i suppose to go out and serve Thee on a mission? And with that, i got my answer. I know it's premature, i mean i am ONLY 19 1/4 years old... But i guess that just gives me more time t know and to prepare. Answers to prayers are sometimes only that answer, for a specific time.
January 10th, 2012
Today i've really been thinking about all of this. I want nothing more to be sealed to my husband, whoever and wherever he is, as soon as possible. As my grandpa told me, "a mission wont get you exalted, but a husband will" i knew he is right. But i can't deny His plans for me. Plans are subject to change, and that's the beauty of it. I may have got the revelation that i need to go on a mission because i need to prepare by knowing the doctrine more so that when i meet people in my everyday life, i will be prepared to teach them what i know and love, just as the Lord is preparing them to hear it. You're probably wondering why i included August 1st in my list of dates, and its because i really dont know who i will marry, if i'll end up going on a mission, or if it will be serving a mission with my husband. But what i do know is that right now, i have the spirit in my life to teach me what i should be preparing or, to answer my prayers, and to allow me to speak with my Father in heaven. I just have to allow myself to let go, and trust Him to take me where i need to be.
